Changing

My friend always told me,
It’s not too late for you choose what type of person you want to become.
And be aware of yourself and people around you.

I which I could make a choice that easy.
I know how I react, I know how I behave
but sometimes all of that happen without I notice it.

I hope I can change it right away.
But it’s hard to change with what had happen.
It’s makes my life fill with anger.
It’s makes me loose control.

Please help me went through this matter.
Help me make my decision.
I don’t want to let anybody down.
I don’t want to make anybody hurt,
It’s hurt when you see someone you love and care hurt.

Please.. help me..